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sumanana
04 October 2010 @ 07:50 pm
One day everything we know will be gone and it will be replaced. Nothing substantial will be left from our time. There will be fragments of legends and histories, but nothing to see. We will exist as perhaps a fraction of a glancing thought. We will be forgotten as soon as we are remembered.
 
 
sumanana
04 October 2010 @ 07:43 pm
Unh.  
I am wandering on the precipice of deep philosophy. Fumes waft up and pervade my senses. They play in my nose, mingling and worming their way towards my thoughts, but then I think and they are gone, only to be replaced by the next wave.

I wax philosophic when I'm sleepy.
 
 
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
 
 
sumanana
21 August 2010 @ 10:45 am
There are so many things I want to know. I just wrote a piecewise function to navigate a hypothetical submarine through a cave, and I want to do more of that. It was fun. I want to write a text adventure and learn to program it in Java. I'm starting to think that maybe I don't really care where I go to school next year as long as I can keep doing what I love. Maybe all these tests and exams are really very superficial. Just hunted heads mounted on the wall. I just want to learn and do things and if I can help someone by it, then great. But what if I don't go to a big fancy school? I guess the real issue is money, but that shouldn't stand in the way of what I want to do. A lot of private schools will offer you full compensation for whatever you can't pay, you just have to get in. I don't really know much about schools. Maybe I should learn about them and what sorts of schools will offer aid in whatever ways and to whatever degree.
It's so hard not knowing where I'll be next year. Always before I've known 'Oh, this time next year I'll be at X school, taking X classes.' And now that I'm a senior I really don't know. Maybe I will be at school, but where? Will I be living at home or somewhere else? What about my friends, will they still be around? What if I'm not in school for some unforeseen reason? Will I have a job? WIll I be able to drive? Will anyone I know have died? Will I be in a relationship? So many possibilities and I'm approaching a crossroads. I feel like If I don't buckle down and start thinking about schools and applications I'll be left behind.
What do I do?
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: confusedconfused
Current Music: none
 
 
sumanana
25 July 2010 @ 08:37 am
The first manga I ever read was Tokyo Mew Mew.
The first band I became obsessed with was Gorillaz.
The first time I watched Naruto was in 7th grade.
The first concert I went to without my mother was at the Echoplex to see The 88.
The first time I ran a marathon I was 12 years old.
The first series of games I completed was the original Spyro the Dragon trilogy on the first playstation.
The first handheld game console I ever owned was a dark blue gameboy pocket.
The first Zelda game I played was A Link to the Past.
The first food I loved was sushi.
The first food I was able to cook by myself was eggs.
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Current Location: home
Current Mood: sleepysleepy
Current Music: none
 
 
sumanana
26 June 2010 @ 11:04 am
Rap  
I am quickly discovering that I love that sort of mellow, laid-back rap. Danger Mouse especially does some neat stuff. Obviously there's Gorillaz, but Pandora just gave me a track from Danger Doom and I loved it. I'm gonna check out the rest of the album.
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: awakeawake
Current Music: Pandora- Gorillaz Radio
 
 
 
sumanana
15 June 2010 @ 10:47 am
Roses are red.
Violets are blue.
LOL, JK.
They're purple foo'.
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Current Location: school
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: none
 
 
sumanana
15 May 2010 @ 07:29 pm
How?  
So do I just go up and say that I like you a lot, but you're a douche-bag?

Nah. I don't think you really care all that much about what I think. That's okay, I haven't actually talked to you for months.
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: restlessrestless
Current Music: gorillaz
 
 
sumanana
15 May 2010 @ 07:25 pm
Do you find it very hard to open up to people? Why or why not? What are the benefits and disadvantages of being emotionally guarded?

When the right moment comes, I'll open up. But I gotta know they really want to hear about it or I feel burdensome. I don't even need their advice, it just feels good to not be alone. There's really few things worse than the feeling of being alone in a crowd of people.
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Music: gorillaz
 
 
sumanana
14 May 2010 @ 08:10 pm
I was debating on what music to buy. My mom got me an iTunes gift card.
Okay, I said that in the wrong order. Please arrange chronologically.

I deliberated for a few days. I bought a Cake CD that I'd already decided on. I mulled over The Flaming Lips and I thought about The Foo FIghters and Radiohead. I dabbled with Eels and Vampire Weekend. I thought maybe I wanted something new; I fed through the iTunes Essentials and the School of Rock. I picked at the Violent Femmes and Hollywierd. In the end I bought my third Modest Mouse album.

They stir very deep emotions with me. When I listen to a particular song of theirs I feel very strongly. Content, angry, upset, frustrated, defeated, ecstatic, nostalgic. They just make me feel. In the same way that Counting Crows does and Blue October. Subtley different genres, but these artists have something that really gets me where it counts.
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: hopefulhopeful
Current Music: Modest Mouse
 
 
sumanana
14 May 2010 @ 07:53 pm
In three words, describe what's currently running through your mind.

Modest Mouse: Melancholy
 
 
Current Location: home
Current Mood: groggygroggy
Current Music: modest mouse (duh)